Here I am back, without another trigger event to spark my barrage of melancholic rants, surprisingly.

So, I finally put my mental foot down and managed to take care of some annoying matters of the heart....and came out a champ and feeling better. Initially, precursor to my post below I had qualms of letting him go. But yesterday, after a rather unexpected (and rather oblivious, I might add) revelation, that I was able to really let the weight of the situation settle in. Sure, I was rather emo yet again for strike 3, but they did say that three times a charm :)

I look back in hindsight; and remember sheepishly the things I've been through the last few months. Broke away from a 5 year familiarity, dived into a sweet but reckless infatuation that wasn't meant to be, and without catching breath, plummet even further into a tentative state of calm that came with a lot of uncertainty.

When did I become so brave, I wonder? Here's a girl who try to hold on to the last straws of hope even when she knew that it wasn't going to work out. Who tried to change and mold to the way what THEY had in mind. But I was not the least bit happy, nor did I feel secure about the future.

Fast forward to the present, I'm contented in the way things are now. this morning when I woke up... I felt great. And now that I no longer have any guys holding me back, I'm set to bedazzle the world and even more excited on planning on the many many things I've been meaning to do but have not yet.

But I guess thats how we learn?

I don't want short term. Nor mediocre. Nor uncertainty.

I want a no frills love that will last <3

And I'm willing to wait for it, this time :)